I held responsibility to those who rely on me. I held responsibility to those I decided to allow them into my life, to whom I took them into my life by my bare hand.
To respect others, I have to show sincerity. To hitch a place to have a roof over head for few days, I have to ask permission, no matter who that person is, I need to have a grateful attitude and be reasonable too.
To my child, I hold so dearly in my heart, yet my actions speak another way. I should have accompany you and console you while you are here the first time, I shouldnt have left you alone for more than 10 hours and expected you to be fearless and wait for my return without anxiety nor paranoid. I am truly sorry for neglecting your feelings and fear during this period of time, i am sorry for being so selfish to enjoy my own sweet time out there in the day and left you alone in a stranger place. Despite I was having you running all over my mind while I was away, but I have never came back to check how you are doing here.
I am sorry for what you have had to go through the whole day when you were alone, and when you were out there by the street, knowing not the slightest idea of what or how you have survived the day, which ended up by the side of a busy main road. Losing you that few hours could really tear me apart. It is my greatest gratefulness to have found you in good shape, safe and uninjured. I thank God for allowing me to once again hold you in my arm. I will appreciate more of the moments we have now onwards.
To my mentor of life, I am sorry for I have taken things for granted. I wasnt even sincere enough to apologize for bringing my child here and knowing that she would somehow mess up the peaceful environment. I acted as if she is bigger than anything else. I am sorry that I have been rude and showed disrespect to you. I am very grateful and thank you for allowing me the second chance, for keeping my child safe despite the hours of missing in this city which she has no knowledge of. I thank you for this lesson. I learnt it a hard way. I ask for your forgiveness.. Namo amitabha.
