I've always tell myself, that if there is a problem there sure be solutions; whenever i'm facing problems, i have to first settle my mood, as when the mood is settled, problems will be easier to be conquered, better, it might be a good lesson to be learnt. To have this done might not as easy as i said, yet i'm learning. Always when unpleasant things had happened, people would feel upset, disappointed, and having the occurance of almost every negative thoughts and feelings; no doubt that i too feel the same way, but thinking of it again, what's the point of feeling such way? Things had happened, what's the point of questionned who's right and who's wrong? Ask yourself, what's important now? The end result? Or your ego? If the answer is the end result, then start figure out the solutions instead of pointing fingers or even fall into depression state. Meaning, you have to know the priority. If ego is important to you, then get a solution for the problems you're facing, rather than being a boss to everyone every second.
To me, life is about learning. Other than learning about basic needs, interpersonal skills, meaning communication is one of the most important thing to be learnt in everyday living. All the doing, end result? My own benefits. For example, someone is making me upset. Im upset because his or her attitude/behaviour/characteristic/personality just don't suit my expectation. My solution? Why this person is doing this to me? Intentionally? Or unintentionally? Am i really bothered of this matter? If i do, i confront this person, then i shall find out the intention or unintention thingy. The result? I get to know another character or attitude or personality that i might not expose to before; and i learnt how to confront this type of person in future. Otherwise, to learn how to forgive and forget would be my solution. Why bothered of things? Without ups and downs, we learn nothing much about life; we won't be able to experience different situations in life. With ups and downs in life, it actually makes our life a colourful one; we get to know the variety of human beings; we get to learn the many ways of attitude in facing the ups and downs.
When i say about ups and downs, of course it means happy moments and sad moments. When i say about the many ways of attitude in facing the ups and downs, all i mentions was about the solutions of the downs moments. How about the ups moments? Are we just simple laugh away? Nah, to me, ups can be enjoy in many ways as well. I bet you people that reading this, would agree with me if i say we enjoy the ups moments by having a great dinner with friends; or we go for a Karaoke session in redbox; or maybe just hold tight to your dear one, and say "I love you". Sometimes, it can be as simple as having a great nap in the afternoon; listen to your favourite music; having an 2 hour bath; or maybe just simply stay home and cook yourself and your family a great dinner; ha! or just write a blog at that moment and share it with everybody else. =)
Always remember those that loves you dearly when you are down, then the day will be a better one again. Never underestimate the power of love from those that loves you dearly. Dont get bothered by those that do not appreciated you as who you are (unless you are willing to let them notice how you treasure the relationship, then figure out the most suitable way for that particular person. Always remember, there ain't only a type of behaviour everyone is having, so, it's a learning process when you learn to deal with different people using different ways). Most importantly, love yourself. That's the priority of your life. When you treat someone good, it does not mean that you will be treated the same in return; do what you should do, and know your limit.
Once a friend said to me," that girl is not worth it for you to care about, she just don't appreciated you, not your friendship", and i answered this,"i'm willing to treat her as friend, because i know her attitude, and i know how to deal with the downs moments i might face, that's the risk i have to take. If she calls for companion, i'll be there, because i know that's the time when she's really in need of a helping hand. That's how i deal with this friend,"
Well, saying about love, i can't wait to go home, just to reunion with my family. ah, and my cute nephew.. i miss them just so much! =D
Ok, i shall stop here now. cya, and take care, my friends. ;)
Thursday, April 20, 2006
Wednesday, April 12, 2006
Finally Done!
Finally this morning i had done my last final paper.. well, didnt sleep whole night, studying studying and studying, yet can't stop thinking how i must enjoy this whole afternoon after the paper... i have to sleep whole day!!! However, after i finished that paper, i didnt come home straight, i was hanging around with 2 friends, have a short chat with them, starting to miss their companion.. then each of them have something to be done; one went to school office on her Industry Training stuff; one need to get on the Uni bus and get home.. so, i got myself on my bike and started riding home. I was kinda feeling down, no idea why.. i guess i'll be start missing my friends madly..
So, i reached home, took a short rest, went out for lunch, came back home, now sitting in front of my computer screen, writting this blog. Oh, just check the carrymarks from my lecturer, im quite satisfied of the results, yet still hoping my final paper as well as my project marks will be a nice one in order for me to score on that subject.. so sick of getting A- all the time... pray pray pray.. friends, please pray for me, i have never score one subject in these 3 years!! .. A- A- A- was all about it.. just that little bit of points.. make such a big different..
Well, like to share with you all about my lecturer too.. first of all, she is a real sweet lady, although she might seem very strict at times, yet she is really a nice lecturer. Never had i met a lecturer who would share some videos with their students middle of the class, just for the sake of fun learning and throw away the boreness of the class. She is a humour lecturer too, well, maybe some students just won't bother to pay any attention in class, so, sometimes she was like talking alone. A lecturer that can bring to a talk and she is a sporting one too. By the way, i'm so impressed of the knowledge in her expertise. I like it the most especially when she can just type the words on the screen without having to look at the keyboard but the whatever notes or book or paper next to her computer. Ah, now here please dont get me wrong, i aint falling in love with her, im just impressed and respect my lecturer, and im so glad that i actually met this lecturer.
You guys out there that reading my blog now, and got attracted (if you do) of what i wrote about my life in this blogger, should thank my lecturer too, as she was the one who brought me in here, which was kinda lke an order.. haha..
well, i guess that will be all for now. Time for me to sleep now. see ya =)
So, i reached home, took a short rest, went out for lunch, came back home, now sitting in front of my computer screen, writting this blog. Oh, just check the carrymarks from my lecturer, im quite satisfied of the results, yet still hoping my final paper as well as my project marks will be a nice one in order for me to score on that subject.. so sick of getting A- all the time... pray pray pray.. friends, please pray for me, i have never score one subject in these 3 years!! .. A- A- A- was all about it.. just that little bit of points.. make such a big different..
Well, like to share with you all about my lecturer too.. first of all, she is a real sweet lady, although she might seem very strict at times, yet she is really a nice lecturer. Never had i met a lecturer who would share some videos with their students middle of the class, just for the sake of fun learning and throw away the boreness of the class. She is a humour lecturer too, well, maybe some students just won't bother to pay any attention in class, so, sometimes she was like talking alone. A lecturer that can bring to a talk and she is a sporting one too. By the way, i'm so impressed of the knowledge in her expertise. I like it the most especially when she can just type the words on the screen without having to look at the keyboard but the whatever notes or book or paper next to her computer. Ah, now here please dont get me wrong, i aint falling in love with her, im just impressed and respect my lecturer, and im so glad that i actually met this lecturer.
You guys out there that reading my blog now, and got attracted (if you do) of what i wrote about my life in this blogger, should thank my lecturer too, as she was the one who brought me in here, which was kinda lke an order.. haha..
well, i guess that will be all for now. Time for me to sleep now. see ya =)
Thursday, March 30, 2006
A headache when writting a blog
Normally, i don't write blog, i never write diary as well... Now, im writing this, i guess, it's just out of nothing to do..
To write blog, means that im sharing whatever im going through or went through before im writing this blog.. im sharing this with the world.. normally, i dont tell what's in my mind, not even to my parents, my brothers, nor my friends. So, it's kinda a difficult task for me to actually write something here, other than my thoughts (at this moment), my beliefs, my opinion etc.. to those that had been reading my blog everytime i update it, well, i think you should have notice that what i have written was just about me me me and me again.. Actually i thought of writting some poems to share with everyone, yet i cant come out any of it now. I used to write when i was in secondary school. Well, it wasnt in English though. I wrote it in Malay. =)
How do you actually do this? You see, when i click on "Update Blog" then "Create New Post", i was like,"uhm.. i think i can tell something interesting today,", but when im in the "Compose a New Post" page, i got blank.. how to start? what to write? then here am i, writting this again, my thoughts. haha.. i bet there must be someone who kinda get bored of my blog yer? well, friends, frankly, i would like to share whatever i have, but i just couldnt put my feelings into words. Maybe one day, i shall really write something where when everybody read my blog, i actually put a smile on your face. =)
Have a nice day!
~erna~
To write blog, means that im sharing whatever im going through or went through before im writing this blog.. im sharing this with the world.. normally, i dont tell what's in my mind, not even to my parents, my brothers, nor my friends. So, it's kinda a difficult task for me to actually write something here, other than my thoughts (at this moment), my beliefs, my opinion etc.. to those that had been reading my blog everytime i update it, well, i think you should have notice that what i have written was just about me me me and me again.. Actually i thought of writting some poems to share with everyone, yet i cant come out any of it now. I used to write when i was in secondary school. Well, it wasnt in English though. I wrote it in Malay. =)
How do you actually do this? You see, when i click on "Update Blog" then "Create New Post", i was like,"uhm.. i think i can tell something interesting today,", but when im in the "Compose a New Post" page, i got blank.. how to start? what to write? then here am i, writting this again, my thoughts. haha.. i bet there must be someone who kinda get bored of my blog yer? well, friends, frankly, i would like to share whatever i have, but i just couldnt put my feelings into words. Maybe one day, i shall really write something where when everybody read my blog, i actually put a smile on your face. =)
Have a nice day!
~erna~
Monday, March 27, 2006
Today
I met a friend today. He was nice to me once.. well, i am just curious how can human being change in such a way. As i wrote in one of my other blogs, everyday life involves human interaction and it develops into feelings and all kind of relationships. What is my position to this friend that i just met today? Am i still a friend whom he treated well not long ago? Or am i just became another pass-byer in his life?
It's funny when a relationship like friendship turns to a "strangership". Well, maybe that's what we call the variety of life experiences. However, today, the same day i met this friend, I got to know closer one of my friend. We were not close, we were just kinda like "hi-bye" friends, but today, we have had a chance to sit down, had a great dinner, chit chat and even dance, in this big group of girls' gathering night!
Well, i guess sometimes in life, we lost something and we get back some as well. It was a great night anyway. It has been long since my last hang-out with friends.
It's funny when a relationship like friendship turns to a "strangership". Well, maybe that's what we call the variety of life experiences. However, today, the same day i met this friend, I got to know closer one of my friend. We were not close, we were just kinda like "hi-bye" friends, but today, we have had a chance to sit down, had a great dinner, chit chat and even dance, in this big group of girls' gathering night!
Well, i guess sometimes in life, we lost something and we get back some as well. It was a great night anyway. It has been long since my last hang-out with friends.
Sunday, March 26, 2006
One Sleepless Night
Can't sleep tonight, can't study either.. nth much to do, no mood to play games.. chat with my brother but i think he is busy.. sometimes i wonder, why am i leaving life like this? How do i make this life more interesting? Is it being happy is enough? A friend said this before," Are we human beings going through a spiritual experience or we are spiritual beings undergoing a human experience?" I have been thinking.. still i can't find the answer, but one thing, what am i going to do with my life? What am i going to be after i have been a student for years?
Everyday life involve human interactions.. human interactions involve feelings.. which it develops into relationships--friendships, partnerships, a family etc.. are those just a short term thingy in life? Sometimes i will have such feelings,"it's just part of life, why bother much about it?" sometimes i would want to be cruel to certain relationship, yet i couldnt do so, why? It's funny.
while im writing this, i dont have answer to what i wrote. Im not asking for answer as well. i just curious.. why am i in this world.. what am i going to do with my life? why there are so much conflict in my mind? and why am i so bother about these middle of night like this? gosh..
Everyday life involve human interactions.. human interactions involve feelings.. which it develops into relationships--friendships, partnerships, a family etc.. are those just a short term thingy in life? Sometimes i will have such feelings,"it's just part of life, why bother much about it?" sometimes i would want to be cruel to certain relationship, yet i couldnt do so, why? It's funny.
while im writing this, i dont have answer to what i wrote. Im not asking for answer as well. i just curious.. why am i in this world.. what am i going to do with my life? why there are so much conflict in my mind? and why am i so bother about these middle of night like this? gosh..
Saturday, March 25, 2006
Rushing Hours
yo, people out there!! How's everyone doing?? i have not been updating my blog for 2 months now, well, im a more active one in friendster. Please do drop by my friendster, which i had set it as my homepage.
so, these days i've been quite busy with my assignments and projects. Another 1 week will be my final exam week. So, kinda tension here. I still have 2 more assignments to be done, and i have my thesis to be completed by end of April.. darn.. thinking of it, i get so stressed.
Nothing interesting that actually happened for the past 2 months.. oh yah, i went to Brunei 2 weeks ago, it was a chance to relax anyway. It was quite fun though it was just a short holiday. I bought a key chain and a postcard, very nice. However, i love the local food more. especially Nasi Katok which cost only 1Brunei Dollar.
Went to the theme park as well, sadly, most of the game were closed. I was there walking around in the park with friends, didnt get any chance to play any game though.
Well, i have to get back to work now. Have a nice day. Thanks for dropping by. ;)
so, these days i've been quite busy with my assignments and projects. Another 1 week will be my final exam week. So, kinda tension here. I still have 2 more assignments to be done, and i have my thesis to be completed by end of April.. darn.. thinking of it, i get so stressed.
Nothing interesting that actually happened for the past 2 months.. oh yah, i went to Brunei 2 weeks ago, it was a chance to relax anyway. It was quite fun though it was just a short holiday. I bought a key chain and a postcard, very nice. However, i love the local food more. especially Nasi Katok which cost only 1Brunei Dollar.
Went to the theme park as well, sadly, most of the game were closed. I was there walking around in the park with friends, didnt get any chance to play any game though.
Well, i have to get back to work now. Have a nice day. Thanks for dropping by. ;)
Monday, January 09, 2006
My New Blog...
Oh my God!!!! This is my third blog, i guess.. haha.. Well, i have not been very active for any of my web blog actually.. i hope i will be for this one.
Hmm.. What is a web blog? Should i say it's a diary? Or should i say that it's a way to share my ups and downs with the world out there? Well, i guess i would agree with the second one. A diary is still a personal thing that i wouldn't speak out openly.
A web blog i used when i want to share my ups and downs, when i want the rest of the world to be happy together with me, and of course to comfort me or advise me when i need it. Or just simply a place for me to speak out loud when i can't find anyone for me to do so.
So, when you are feeling bored, when you have nothing better to do, or when your friends are too busy to entertain you, why not drop by and read some of my updates here? =) I shall try to get this update as often as i could!
Lastly, thanks for dropping by.
Well, have a nice day!!
Ernest
Hmm.. What is a web blog? Should i say it's a diary? Or should i say that it's a way to share my ups and downs with the world out there? Well, i guess i would agree with the second one. A diary is still a personal thing that i wouldn't speak out openly.
A web blog i used when i want to share my ups and downs, when i want the rest of the world to be happy together with me, and of course to comfort me or advise me when i need it. Or just simply a place for me to speak out loud when i can't find anyone for me to do so.
So, when you are feeling bored, when you have nothing better to do, or when your friends are too busy to entertain you, why not drop by and read some of my updates here? =) I shall try to get this update as often as i could!
Lastly, thanks for dropping by.
Well, have a nice day!!
Ernest
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