A headache when writting a blog

Normally, i don't write blog, i never write diary as well... Now, im writing this, i guess, it's just out of nothing to do..
To write blog, means that im sharing whatever im going through or went through before im writing this blog.. im sharing this with the world.. normally, i dont tell what's in my mind, not even to my parents, my brothers, nor my friends. So, it's kinda a difficult task for me to actually write something here, other than my thoughts (at this moment), my beliefs, my opinion etc.. to those that had been reading my blog everytime i update it, well, i think you should have notice that what i have written was just about me me me and me again.. Actually i thought of writting some poems to share with everyone, yet i cant come out any of it now. I used to write when i was in secondary school. Well, it wasnt in English though. I wrote it in Malay. =)

How do you actually do this? You see, when i click on "Update Blog" then "Create New Post", i was like,"uhm.. i think i can tell something interesting today,", but when im in the "Compose a New Post" page, i got blank.. how to start? what to write? then here am i, writting this again, my thoughts. haha.. i bet there must be someone who kinda get bored of my blog yer? well, friends, frankly, i would like to share whatever i have, but i just couldnt put my feelings into words. Maybe one day, i shall really write something where when everybody read my blog, i actually put a smile on your face. =)

Have a nice day!

~erna~

Today

I met a friend today. He was nice to me once.. well, i am just curious how can human being change in such a way. As i wrote in one of my other blogs, everyday life involves human interaction and it develops into feelings and all kind of relationships. What is my position to this friend that i just met today? Am i still a friend whom he treated well not long ago? Or am i just became another pass-byer in his life?

It's funny when a relationship like friendship turns to a "strangership". Well, maybe that's what we call the variety of life experiences. However, today, the same day i met this friend, I got to know closer one of my friend. We were not close, we were just kinda like "hi-bye" friends, but today, we have had a chance to sit down, had a great dinner, chit chat and even dance, in this big group of girls' gathering night!

Well, i guess sometimes in life, we lost something and we get back some as well. It was a great night anyway. It has been long since my last hang-out with friends.

One Sleepless Night

Can't sleep tonight, can't study either.. nth much to do, no mood to play games.. chat with my brother but i think he is busy.. sometimes i wonder, why am i leaving life like this? How do i make this life more interesting? Is it being happy is enough? A friend said this before," Are we human beings going through a spiritual experience or we are spiritual beings undergoing a human experience?" I have been thinking.. still i can't find the answer, but one thing, what am i going to do with my life? What am i going to be after i have been a student for years?

Everyday life involve human interactions.. human interactions involve feelings.. which it develops into relationships--friendships, partnerships, a family etc.. are those just a short term thingy in life? Sometimes i will have such feelings,"it's just part of life, why bother much about it?" sometimes i would want to be cruel to certain relationship, yet i couldnt do so, why? It's funny.

while im writing this, i dont have answer to what i wrote. Im not asking for answer as well. i just curious.. why am i in this world.. what am i going to do with my life? why there are so much conflict in my mind? and why am i so bother about these middle of night like this? gosh..

Rushing Hours

yo, people out there!! How's everyone doing?? i have not been updating my blog for 2 months now, well, im a more active one in friendster. Please do drop by my friendster, which i had set it as my homepage.

so, these days i've been quite busy with my assignments and projects. Another 1 week will be my final exam week. So, kinda tension here. I still have 2 more assignments to be done, and i have my thesis to be completed by end of April.. darn.. thinking of it, i get so stressed.

Nothing interesting that actually happened for the past 2 months.. oh yah, i went to Brunei 2 weeks ago, it was a chance to relax anyway. It was quite fun though it was just a short holiday. I bought a key chain and a postcard, very nice. However, i love the local food more. especially Nasi Katok which cost only 1Brunei Dollar.

Went to the theme park as well, sadly, most of the game were closed. I was there walking around in the park with friends, didnt get any chance to play any game though.

Well, i have to get back to work now. Have a nice day. Thanks for dropping by. ;)