Almost the end of another day.
I was at the World Urology Congress last weekend. Hm. It was such an experience I would say, but if you were to ask, "What have you learnt?" Gosh.. I seriously can't answer that.
Hell right. I was pretty much in stress the day before the congress, trying to read through the urology catalogue, somehow I just couldn't get anything into my brain. While I was at the congress, I was too blur and didn't know what exactly to promote and how to really approach the walk in clients. At this stage, I am still having very low self-confidence. What do I know about products? What are our main products? What are the strategies?
I talked to a senior friend, she can always give me some good advices. I realized my mistakes. I have not prepared myself well by asking the right questions in preparing myself for the congress. Stress? Something I brought to myself because of my own consequences. Initiative is the word. The right question is another key. but... like I have menti0ned in my previous blogs, how do I know which is right and which is not? It ain't that I do not think, maybe I am just not that smart enough, I just can't be a smart ass as spontaneous as I could have been, aye?
I did try to listen, I did try to read. What are those difficulties I am facing? Gosh, help me. No doubt, I am feeling stress as days passes by. What have I done within these two months? Have I really tried and pushed myself? But why am I feeling so lost each and every time I attended any workshop; or ask questions; or even reading those books at my very own corner? Three months is soon finishing, and i can't wait to learn up things, but I am as if now lost in the jungle of Storz! Time is not waiting and I really do not have much time left..
It has been sleepless nights again. I try not to think about the problems currently happening at home; try to concentrate in work, try to make myself busy after work, or sometimes even sleep pretty early; but I guess, when things are left unsettled, avoiding still wouldn't help any much.
A friend once told me, when it isn't meant for us to settle, then just leave it. Can I? I tried telling my brother about what's going on, all I got was, "Don't bother," How? If them already not bothering of these, should I the only and the last one who is still staying with my family, not to bother too? I can imagine, how heartfelt pain, and lonely both them will become, whenever they ain't talking to each other. Who's gonna listen to them?
Hear but don't listen?
Ask but ain't really care?
Ask just for the sake of fulfilling their curiosity?
Those should only happen in so-so friendship.
Anyway, back to my job. Tomorrow is another workshop. Tonight, maybe, maybe I can figure out what have I missed during my last workshop lessons. Yesterday and today, I was at a workshop in Ampang Hospital. I hope, I did learn something these two days.
What is my current concentration? Check..
hm. It seems like today's blog is as lost as my current situation. sigh. What a start and what an end. Kinda lost track now, I have not been really blogging these days.
If you ask me if I like my job? Yeah, I do. I like my job, I like my colleagues. I just hate it when I am so lost.
Oh by the way, I've got my self a new nickname - Mangoesteen.. from a Prof. sigh. For those who knows me, you know how this nick came about.. what a joke..
Anyway, gonna back to hostel now. Will try to write some better blog next time around.
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