Today, 18th of the second month of the year..
I've quit blogging for some time, which also means I've been keeping things within myself. That feelings, sucks.
Someone told me about sharing, but sharing doesn't mean finger pointing and defending, and thus you understand more about the other party. Sharing doesn't mean you stereotyped a person and expect that person to defend should you were incorrect.
Sharing is when you have doubts, you speak it out, you voice it out, even when you have unstable emotions, you be yourself in front of the person you allowed yourself to share with. Sharing is when you loosen up yourself, and let go of your emotions, so that the person whom shares, listens and be a friend by your side, to console or to advice, or just being there for you.
I am not standing in the past, I may not as sensitive as I should be, but I am not standing in the past; so, do not compare; do not try to plant into the mind that I was comparing.
Did you know, that when I started keeping things within myself, it was when you started what you thought was sharing - the "your opinions" and "my "supposed" self-defend". I remembered the feelings result of harsh words from you each and every time I asked simple questions or direct questions; or even when I made a statement, I was badly influenced your emotions, plans etc... it seems whatever I said or did, was never agreed by you; I guess, that was the reason why I never say anything anymore. You did not help me grow, instead you shut my confidence off..
When I was emotional, you asked,"Why are you so emotional?"; I can't be emotional in front of you;
Agreed, then I smile; Disagreed, then I say thank you for sharing.
I put aside memories which are sweet, just so that you know what you wish to know, through - the sharing. I do not follow the book, because I have never read the book, I do not understand their love language. So, I did what I did, I understand a person, by his behaviour, by his attitude, by my observations, by times of disagreements occurred, by consoling myself that it will be better the next time we talk;
Work, I do it step by step;
Life, I let it go with the flow, with principles to hold.
Love, is a matter of heart, feelings is the key.
We do not clicked, you said.
We did not communicate well, I think.
Today, I asked my heart, it told me, "I need you to take care of me,"
You asked if i ever grab the chances and opportunities for myself... I did, in my way, which I thought I was doing so.
Definitions are varies for everyone.
I've quit blogging for some time, which also means I've been keeping things within myself. That feelings, sucks.
Someone told me about sharing, but sharing doesn't mean finger pointing and defending, and thus you understand more about the other party. Sharing doesn't mean you stereotyped a person and expect that person to defend should you were incorrect.
Sharing is when you have doubts, you speak it out, you voice it out, even when you have unstable emotions, you be yourself in front of the person you allowed yourself to share with. Sharing is when you loosen up yourself, and let go of your emotions, so that the person whom shares, listens and be a friend by your side, to console or to advice, or just being there for you.
I am not standing in the past, I may not as sensitive as I should be, but I am not standing in the past; so, do not compare; do not try to plant into the mind that I was comparing.
Did you know, that when I started keeping things within myself, it was when you started what you thought was sharing - the "your opinions" and "my "supposed" self-defend". I remembered the feelings result of harsh words from you each and every time I asked simple questions or direct questions; or even when I made a statement, I was badly influenced your emotions, plans etc... it seems whatever I said or did, was never agreed by you; I guess, that was the reason why I never say anything anymore. You did not help me grow, instead you shut my confidence off..
When I was emotional, you asked,"Why are you so emotional?"; I can't be emotional in front of you;
Agreed, then I smile; Disagreed, then I say thank you for sharing.
I put aside memories which are sweet, just so that you know what you wish to know, through - the sharing. I do not follow the book, because I have never read the book, I do not understand their love language. So, I did what I did, I understand a person, by his behaviour, by his attitude, by my observations, by times of disagreements occurred, by consoling myself that it will be better the next time we talk;
Work, I do it step by step;
Life, I let it go with the flow, with principles to hold.
Love, is a matter of heart, feelings is the key.
We do not clicked, you said.
We did not communicate well, I think.
Today, I asked my heart, it told me, "I need you to take care of me,"
You asked if i ever grab the chances and opportunities for myself... I did, in my way, which I thought I was doing so.
Definitions are varies for everyone.
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