What should I say? How should I act?
It has been happened again and again.
I am asking the same question again.
What is the logic behind doing something you know it harms the harmony of life?
Seriously, am I not doing good enough?
Have you ever think for my sake? Or am I just a person who should play my role and do my responsibilities whenever you want me to?
Do you care because I am yours? Or do you really care because I am a person who needs to walk my own life? All I am seeing, you care because I am yours.
I will never forget how I begged for some mercy, and how you begged for that material, without considering how am I going to survive myself.
I never blame anyone but myself. I am not capable of changing it, after so many years I tried. I am already at the "I had enough" level, leaving seems to be my best options. Yet, I am staying, mainly because of I am still yours.
I am considering too much, I am worrying too much; why can't I take actions like both them?
Why I have to be tough like such?
People always say to me,"Wah, you are so lucky, must be loved all the time, and pampered too,"
I am pampered, because I am allowing myself to; but I am not really pampered, because they ain't really pampered me so.
I learnt to be so tough, learnt to analyze every single situations, learnt to handle every possible conflicts that will happen, learnt to shut my mouth anytime anywhere whatever I hear or listen, learnt to clear the conflicts without involving anyone but myself etc.
I am only human, I am not superwoman. I am only a girl, and I am the youngest of all. Why am I having all these on my shoulder, on my heart? Because they learnt to let go, and they left early, that's why. And because they just don't seem to think for my sake, yet I am the only person thinking for their sake.
That is why, I am allowing people to named me as "stupid" at times.
It has been happened again and again.
I am asking the same question again.
What is the logic behind doing something you know it harms the harmony of life?
Seriously, am I not doing good enough?
Have you ever think for my sake? Or am I just a person who should play my role and do my responsibilities whenever you want me to?
Do you care because I am yours? Or do you really care because I am a person who needs to walk my own life? All I am seeing, you care because I am yours.
I will never forget how I begged for some mercy, and how you begged for that material, without considering how am I going to survive myself.
I never blame anyone but myself. I am not capable of changing it, after so many years I tried. I am already at the "I had enough" level, leaving seems to be my best options. Yet, I am staying, mainly because of I am still yours.
I am considering too much, I am worrying too much; why can't I take actions like both them?
Why I have to be tough like such?
People always say to me,"Wah, you are so lucky, must be loved all the time, and pampered too,"
I am pampered, because I am allowing myself to; but I am not really pampered, because they ain't really pampered me so.
I learnt to be so tough, learnt to analyze every single situations, learnt to handle every possible conflicts that will happen, learnt to shut my mouth anytime anywhere whatever I hear or listen, learnt to clear the conflicts without involving anyone but myself etc.
I am only human, I am not superwoman. I am only a girl, and I am the youngest of all. Why am I having all these on my shoulder, on my heart? Because they learnt to let go, and they left early, that's why. And because they just don't seem to think for my sake, yet I am the only person thinking for their sake.
That is why, I am allowing people to named me as "stupid" at times.
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